mom was having a hard time believing it too. yesterday Poppy wanted to make some plans. with my birthday coming up soon I had been wanting to do a sort of 40 year laundry list and I woke up thinking about it.
unfortunately I must say I have failed at almost everything I have been striving for by the time I hit 40. I'm not going to make a list after all.
but I am very glad to be alive! and at least I can make Poppy laugh sometimes. that is the most important thing I do have. it feels like a miracle finally that failing at love isn't on my list for once. I hope Lena and Owen always think I'm fun too.
and for my birthday there is really only one thing I want. that I let myself want. because want is a dangerous thing. the only thing I want, and have ever wanted, is to make music to share with world. that everybody can enjoy and have a good time with.
from the moment I hit the first chord with Josh and Ryan, it's the only time my soul feels free and right.
I sure had a lot more to say about all this, but it sure is hard!
I hope I am able to do some good works for people in my 40th year and beyond.
well, that made me tear up a little, i'm not gonna lie.
ReplyDeletewe sure do love you. and poppy. and josh. and mothertruckershaker.